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mmmm....yuck. So I'm not sure what I'm doing here yet. I was saying last night how I don't like to play games. But maybe that's just what I'm doing. One big mind game...which I hate to play so much I'm sure because I always LOSE them.

Yup, it feels like:
GAME: Stay away until he realizes that he misses me.
FOILED: "Ha ha! But her plan can't succede assuming I NEVER miss her!" Yup, I could be just here making assumptions. There's no guarentee on anything.

Tonight I know there's band practice so I might as well just stay away anyway. Nothing worth my time...unless I need to get back into the place for anything. Prime time for it then. Then Wednesday night I was thinking I'd go over to talk but...as my mom pointed out, what is there to talk about? It's not like I can change him. You generally can't make a person change, especially within a week or two. And definitely not if they don't want to.

I'm probably going to be dead tired at work again tonight. How will I last through this week...?

Time to take a shower!

so that I can be a Clean Bean.

Just thought of something....

I've been leaving a lot of comments to people, but I can't access my regular mail at my mom's house. (Some retarded way she has things set up :P) so if anyone is responding to anything I say, sorry, but I can't read it for awhile. I'm thinking of sneaking into my house tonight while he's away though so...maybe. If not, I'll try to fix my mom's computer or get to my dad's house or SOMETHING. I mean not just the LJ comment thing, it's my main email address and I can't get in to read it! Driving me crazy....

But now for something completely different...I decided to a) spoil myself, and 2) be a lemming.
I bought a few new CD's, among them, Evanescence. So far I like it all, though in my current state I'm not in the mood to hear the slower songs. But I think I'll like them as well, just at a later date :P