I'm not an actor

Well first of all the band thing didn't work out. Honestly? It's fine. It's funny, they messaged me saying it wasn't going to work for now a couple days after I was literally driving to practice thinking "I should maybe step down for now." So it really wasn't like super disappointing or anything. (And they were super nice about it. They were like "we think you're really talented" ha ha, STANDARD LETDOWN, "and the worst part is we all really like you and hope we can still hang out and stay friends" Who knows? But the main guy did just recently randomly hit me up on FB) But I was pushing it to my absolute max with them and I just had a string of bad luck where I was recognizing that if ONE thing went wrong in a week then I was garbage as far as practice and being prepared. For our practices I had: 1) a practice right after finding out a friend passed. 2) a practice right after my car had been vandalized and both front windows broken while parked in the damn GATED LOT I pay for! 3) a practice right in the middle of dealing with all that car bullshit. Repairs, rentals, etc.... And on top of all that? I LIKED the music they were playing but I didn't LOVE it. I think if it'd been the latter I would have made time for more. It all made sense. I'm OK with it.

But I still want a band :D

Second? I don't know. I'm still so all about the aerial silks stuff. I realized at my last class that I am totally ready to advance to the next level next session (For those not in the aerial world...it's really common to repeat classes. You get more solid on the moves and a lot of it is just things your body has never done before. It totally makes sense that you haven't gotten it in 6 or 8 weeks or however long a series is.) But in the past two classes I've realized.....I'm disappointed I'm not learning and trying more. And maybe a little bored?? Plus in the last class my instructor (knowing I'd been in her last session class) was like "Lauren! Be my demo!" and talked me through a trick to show the class while I demonstrated. And I think the look on their faces after solidified it. The first timers were IN AWE. (And these were simple things. Obviously my instructor can turn and fly circles around me!) One of them even said "That was really good!" I don't have a ton of confidence and definitely don't think too highly of myself and am humble in most things, but this is an INTRO class. The next is just called BEGINNER. I can handle that. I'm halfway through my second go at Intro and I'm so excited to advance next time. I've tried this a couple times because it's interested me for a long time. And other studios left me feeling kinda blah. This feels like MY PLACE and I am officially obsessed! I can't wait to move on. 4 more weeks and then I get to start the next level! (I'm also kinda obsessively watching instruction videos. At least the next couple weeks I plan to do some open gym times and can't wait to practice!)

So speaking of the band shit......I think I haven't talked about the car shit! I came outside to go to work about two weeks ago and find something has hit my drive side front window (It looks like a bullet. I mean I can't think anything else. Except it didn't actually penetrate the window which I learned looking shit up means probably only a SMALL bullet, like maybe a BB gun, but it was a very centralized impact and cracks radiating from there.) So I accept and am pissed at that. But once I accept it and get into my car I look and see....THE SAME THING ON MY PASSENGER SIDE! Like what the fuck!? It would FOR SURE be a bullet if it'd gone through both windows but instead it means someone hit me from both sides?? I don't even get it. But it's just another travesty of living here and I'm more than ready to move!

So final thing (for now I guess) I found a couple decent places to move to. And then I really scoured my lease and found out I am indeed stuck in my lease until July (when I signed the new one with my roommate.) I'm hoping to be able to get out early. It's not safe in this neighborhood AND there's been a lot of problems where we can't get into the building because the only way to unlock the main door is through an app on our phones. Like I get they could argue 'you chose to live here' if I just say the neighborhood is not safe but if the internet goes down I can't get into my home. I think that counts as 'reasonable safety' my landlord should provide. Also there were fucking MUSHROOMS growing in my bathroom a couple months ago. Yes they fixed the leaking problem that was causing that. ....but tell me there's not now mold in the walls. Tear them down and find out or let me out of my damn lease with no penalty. I'm hoping I have a good case there. I looked it up and found out Missouri kinda sucks for tenant rights vs. landlord rights. (Somehow now surprised with a red state)

I could say more about the past few weeks but I don't post enough. Bullet points.