And in the beginning...

[laurenaf]

I don't know what the fascination is. I don't know what's the draw. Somewhere it seems I came across the idea that it would be "fun" to make myself miserable. I hate what I do to myself and what I force myself to become (a depressed reclusive diet-obsessed freak unable to get close to anyone or form any meaningful relationships.) But then in some odd twisted way, I also like it. My own personal 'Jekyll and Hyde' personality trait.

And I'm never sure which to embrace. I've heard that you have to hit bottom before you can truly begin to heal. And I'm still like a worm, just inching my way down, one new low at a time.

So with that said, enter if you dare. I may have already said too much, and the rest will be friends only, but I like to offer a small taste of what you're getting into with me.

Comments

[prisonerx.livejournal.com]

oh boy, i feel ya.

*m

Re:

[silver-rayn.livejournal.com]

thanks.
sometimes I just really wish I knew where I was coming from. And where I'm going from here. (Even one of two would be better than this!)