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Oct. 20th, 2003 11:22 amHe yelled at me Saturday night.
A lot.
It was all things I deserved. It made me think, so I stayed up wondering if maybe I'm too selfish of a person to be with anyone anyway, I stayed up from about 1 in the a.m. until 4 in the a.m. thinking, long after he had gone to sleep and probably forgotten half the things he was angry about, long after he was no longer angry about half that stuff.
But I'm a dweller. And I think.
I wasn't comfortable that night.
Hmmm....where am I going from here? I was afraid of this. No job and no motivation. We'll see....perhaps tomorrow....
A lot.
It was all things I deserved. It made me think, so I stayed up wondering if maybe I'm too selfish of a person to be with anyone anyway, I stayed up from about 1 in the a.m. until 4 in the a.m. thinking, long after he had gone to sleep and probably forgotten half the things he was angry about, long after he was no longer angry about half that stuff.
But I'm a dweller. And I think.
I wasn't comfortable that night.
Hmmm....where am I going from here? I was afraid of this. No job and no motivation. We'll see....perhaps tomorrow....
