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Feb. 2nd, 2025 07:14 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
laurenafI love that for Valentine's Day the guy and I are both focused on making each other comfortable :D
He admitted this weekend his plans. He's like "I've thought about it and I could have tried to find something 'nice' for you but what I really want to do is get both of us massages." (He'd mentioned this thought in passing before.) For me, we've both complained about our pillows and I know his in particular are old and beaten down and he mentioned wanting to find a really good firm pillow. So that's what I'm looking for. Like spending more than $7 or so on the basic bargain basement pillows for once. I found some nice Memory Foam Cooling pillows that were like $45 for 2 so it's not going super high end or anything but actually spending a little money on what I hope is a decent pillow (and let's admit....it's a little selfish! I've basically started spending my weekends there so it should be more comfortable for me too!)
And speaking of him, since that's all I seem to do here recently :P we also had another band show on Friday. It was GREAT! My mom drove down (10+ hours!) to see one of my shows for the first time. I could tell she had a good time. One of my best friends in the whole world was able to come for her first show ever. (She went to a practice with my old band once but never saw a show) And we do the song 'White Rabbit' at the end of our first set and I heard from no less than 4 people after how absolutely incredible it was Friday night and how impressed they were! I'm hoping we got some good video so I can hear this 'amazing' performance :) Also, I feel like I keep saying this, but I think everyone that came could see just how happy I am finally being with a GOOD guy who I actually enjoy being with too. It's just so weird the longer it goes on and the more I find myself with someone who absolutely is NOT an asshole and who I actually like MORE the more time I spend with him (usually the rare times I don't date an asshole, the more time we spend together the more I find I'm just bored or not really into them....I was trying to not date an asshole for once.) And then I feel kind of guilty and weird because I'm just talking about how great things are with us and how happy I am about it. Like I'm used to my journal being about things I'm struggling with and trials and annoyances and pain. And I don't want it to come off like "oh em gee, everything is great and perfect in my life and I'm just loving life 24/7!" That's definitely not the case and I'm sure more of the bullshit will come out if I continue to be better about writing in here. But there's also a lot of good right now. And maybe it's OK to sit back and enjoy that sometimes.
He admitted this weekend his plans. He's like "I've thought about it and I could have tried to find something 'nice' for you but what I really want to do is get both of us massages." (He'd mentioned this thought in passing before.) For me, we've both complained about our pillows and I know his in particular are old and beaten down and he mentioned wanting to find a really good firm pillow. So that's what I'm looking for. Like spending more than $7 or so on the basic bargain basement pillows for once. I found some nice Memory Foam Cooling pillows that were like $45 for 2 so it's not going super high end or anything but actually spending a little money on what I hope is a decent pillow (and let's admit....it's a little selfish! I've basically started spending my weekends there so it should be more comfortable for me too!)
And speaking of him, since that's all I seem to do here recently :P we also had another band show on Friday. It was GREAT! My mom drove down (10+ hours!) to see one of my shows for the first time. I could tell she had a good time. One of my best friends in the whole world was able to come for her first show ever. (She went to a practice with my old band once but never saw a show) And we do the song 'White Rabbit' at the end of our first set and I heard from no less than 4 people after how absolutely incredible it was Friday night and how impressed they were! I'm hoping we got some good video so I can hear this 'amazing' performance :) Also, I feel like I keep saying this, but I think everyone that came could see just how happy I am finally being with a GOOD guy who I actually enjoy being with too. It's just so weird the longer it goes on and the more I find myself with someone who absolutely is NOT an asshole and who I actually like MORE the more time I spend with him (usually the rare times I don't date an asshole, the more time we spend together the more I find I'm just bored or not really into them....I was trying to not date an asshole for once.) And then I feel kind of guilty and weird because I'm just talking about how great things are with us and how happy I am about it. Like I'm used to my journal being about things I'm struggling with and trials and annoyances and pain. And I don't want it to come off like "oh em gee, everything is great and perfect in my life and I'm just loving life 24/7!" That's definitely not the case and I'm sure more of the bullshit will come out if I continue to be better about writing in here. But there's also a lot of good right now. And maybe it's OK to sit back and enjoy that sometimes.
