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The Other Side...
Nov. 25th, 2003 02:51 pmI believe that's a Red Hot Chili Peppers song.
Just because I'm bored, I am now providing as a public service:
Things You Can't Tell Just By Looking at Her [Journal]
- I'm 5'7" and usually wear two inch heels
- I've started collecting the old My Little Ponies. Hooray for hanging on to my childhood!
- When I was twenty I started getting anxiety attacks so bad I couldn't sleep, eat, or stop walking around for days or weeks at a time. I still don't know what started it all.
- I was given Xanax and not told a thing about how addictive it was. The second round of hell was about six months later when I had to get used to NOT having it.
- When I was four, I wanted to be a rock star. Every day I'd sing into my hairbrush and watch myself in the mirror pretending like I was performing on stage.
- Mirrors have always fascinated me. I have a picture of me as a baby staring into one. As a kid I was amazed at the "two babies." Then I'd take apart my hand mirrors and compacts and things and scratch off the backing, trying to figure out how they all worked.
- I still find mirrors interesting. And unsettling at times.
- I never spell check my entries. (Ha ha! Some people might think "Well, no kidding!") Seriously though, I think I have fairly good spelling and grammar. If I get something wrong it's either on purpose, or not on purpose, but displayed for all to see.
- I spell the word "marshmellow" wrong on purpose. I learned how it was spelled and decided that MY marshmallows are mellow, and always will be.
- My parents divorced last year. I was as surprised by this as everyone else. Talking to them, I find out there's been problems and distance between them since Day One. And people wonder why I don't open up and talk about things. Wonder where I got that from...
- I am very very picky about scents. All of my favorite scents become discontinued not long after I discover them. (Victoria's Secret, you evil bastards, where did all your good scents go?)
- I am gradually becoming a believer in the saying, "Bad things come in three's." At least as far as my car is concerned.
- I got three speeding tickets within two months.
- Later, I got in three car accidents within three months.
- I will inevitably lose or break any pair of sunglasses I own, usually within a year. Same goes for gloves (though I tend to not "break" them, and I usually lose just one.)
- I have a BA in English - Creative Writing.
- I'm not really sure what to do with it. (I DON'T WANT TO TEACH SO LAY OFF!)
- If I could "change my mind later" I might want to have kids and all just because I want to try it, see what I'm missing out on, but overall I don't want kids and I wouldn't want them to ever feel like "a mistake" so I most likely will never have children.
- But I wish I could get married. I'm not sure what we're waiting for (financial security? OK...so I should look forward to marriage in my...40's? :P) so all I can think he's not positive I'm the right one yet. That's the only time I worry about wasting my time here.
- Also I always imagined a fairly typical wedding, including me being a young beutiful bride. I feel like I'm running out of time for that fantasy.
- I feel like I'm running out of time for a lot of things. I was too afraid to try anything when I was younger.
- I'm not as afraid now. I just feel like an 18-year-old trapped in a 24-year-old's body.
- My favorite dogs are West Highland White terriers and I WANT ONE!
- I always wanted to be the one to say "I was such a dork in high school, but look at me now." Instead I fear I'll be saying "I was such a dork in high school...hey! Kind of like now!"
- I was on the pom pon squad for three years. I tried out simply because no one would have ever expected it from me.
- And finally, I am the greatest proof I know AGAINST astrology because I am a Leo and from what I've looked up in the past I have almost NONE of the qualities that Leo's should have.
Just because I'm bored, I am now providing as a public service:
Things You Can't Tell Just By Looking at Her [Journal]
- I'm 5'7" and usually wear two inch heels
- I've started collecting the old My Little Ponies. Hooray for hanging on to my childhood!
- When I was twenty I started getting anxiety attacks so bad I couldn't sleep, eat, or stop walking around for days or weeks at a time. I still don't know what started it all.
- I was given Xanax and not told a thing about how addictive it was. The second round of hell was about six months later when I had to get used to NOT having it.
- When I was four, I wanted to be a rock star. Every day I'd sing into my hairbrush and watch myself in the mirror pretending like I was performing on stage.
- Mirrors have always fascinated me. I have a picture of me as a baby staring into one. As a kid I was amazed at the "two babies." Then I'd take apart my hand mirrors and compacts and things and scratch off the backing, trying to figure out how they all worked.
- I still find mirrors interesting. And unsettling at times.
- I never spell check my entries. (Ha ha! Some people might think "Well, no kidding!") Seriously though, I think I have fairly good spelling and grammar. If I get something wrong it's either on purpose, or not on purpose, but displayed for all to see.
- I spell the word "marshmellow" wrong on purpose. I learned how it was spelled and decided that MY marshmallows are mellow, and always will be.
- My parents divorced last year. I was as surprised by this as everyone else. Talking to them, I find out there's been problems and distance between them since Day One. And people wonder why I don't open up and talk about things. Wonder where I got that from...
- I am very very picky about scents. All of my favorite scents become discontinued not long after I discover them. (Victoria's Secret, you evil bastards, where did all your good scents go?)
- I am gradually becoming a believer in the saying, "Bad things come in three's." At least as far as my car is concerned.
- I got three speeding tickets within two months.
- Later, I got in three car accidents within three months.
- I will inevitably lose or break any pair of sunglasses I own, usually within a year. Same goes for gloves (though I tend to not "break" them, and I usually lose just one.)
- I have a BA in English - Creative Writing.
- I'm not really sure what to do with it. (I DON'T WANT TO TEACH SO LAY OFF!)
- If I could "change my mind later" I might want to have kids and all just because I want to try it, see what I'm missing out on, but overall I don't want kids and I wouldn't want them to ever feel like "a mistake" so I most likely will never have children.
- But I wish I could get married. I'm not sure what we're waiting for (financial security? OK...so I should look forward to marriage in my...40's? :P) so all I can think he's not positive I'm the right one yet. That's the only time I worry about wasting my time here.
- Also I always imagined a fairly typical wedding, including me being a young beutiful bride. I feel like I'm running out of time for that fantasy.
- I feel like I'm running out of time for a lot of things. I was too afraid to try anything when I was younger.
- I'm not as afraid now. I just feel like an 18-year-old trapped in a 24-year-old's body.
- My favorite dogs are West Highland White terriers and I WANT ONE!
- I always wanted to be the one to say "I was such a dork in high school, but look at me now." Instead I fear I'll be saying "I was such a dork in high school...hey! Kind of like now!"
- I was on the pom pon squad for three years. I tried out simply because no one would have ever expected it from me.
- And finally, I am the greatest proof I know AGAINST astrology because I am a Leo and from what I've looked up in the past I have almost NONE of the qualities that Leo's should have.
