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Who the hell are you to say...
Jul. 11th, 2003 09:35 amBecause now he's trying to tell me when I SHOULDN'T be sleeping!
So I fell asleep around 4 in the p.m. yesterday and I woke up about 9 with Scott lying next to me. And next thing I know he's bitching me out because twice this week (Oooo...count it, one and two, holy hell! That's a fucking HABIT!) I have went to sleep late like that and then was sleeping the whole time he was home until I had to get up and leave for work. Oh yeah, I think I did this once last week too. Damn it, I'm a fucking criminal now.
So he's getting all pissed because I haven't been around (well around, but not consciously) when he wants to do stuff, but never cares if HE'S not there when I want him there. I try to say something to this effect and he's just like "Yeah, well I can't help it if I have things that I have to do." I don't think he realized it, but what he made that sound like was "I can't help it that I have a life and other obligations and you just lay around here like a worthless piece of flesh doing nothing." And then he flat out said that if I wanted to do things with him and be around him then *I* was going to have to make some changes. Well if you're going to be like that then maybe I don't WANT to be around you!!!!
I don't know, I wish I could remember more specific things he said. I mean...I wish I could remember it all to better illustrate my point. It's actually probably better I don't remember so much because there were a LOT of insensitive and hurtful statements made. And it's not like that's unheard of. Yes, I've known him to be insensitivea lot and hurtful occasionally, but not to this extent, and not usually to me, and if he IS to me then at least I can usually console myself with the thought that I'm sure he didn't mean it that way.
Not this time. (I got more angry as I thought about it all at work, since he threw all this shit at me right after waking up and I wasn't even thinking right yet.) But no. This was hurtful, insensitive, AND purposeful.
I want to scream and throw things...Maybe when he goes to BAND PRACTICE tonight (third this week by the way) Because I'm supposed to change my life and schedule and everything around for him because everything he does is too im-fucking-portant to make any concessions for stupid old me.
Hmmmph...
So I fell asleep around 4 in the p.m. yesterday and I woke up about 9 with Scott lying next to me. And next thing I know he's bitching me out because twice this week (Oooo...count it, one and two, holy hell! That's a fucking HABIT!) I have went to sleep late like that and then was sleeping the whole time he was home until I had to get up and leave for work. Oh yeah, I think I did this once last week too. Damn it, I'm a fucking criminal now.
So he's getting all pissed because I haven't been around (well around, but not consciously) when he wants to do stuff, but never cares if HE'S not there when I want him there. I try to say something to this effect and he's just like "Yeah, well I can't help it if I have things that I have to do." I don't think he realized it, but what he made that sound like was "I can't help it that I have a life and other obligations and you just lay around here like a worthless piece of flesh doing nothing." And then he flat out said that if I wanted to do things with him and be around him then *I* was going to have to make some changes. Well if you're going to be like that then maybe I don't WANT to be around you!!!!
I don't know, I wish I could remember more specific things he said. I mean...I wish I could remember it all to better illustrate my point. It's actually probably better I don't remember so much because there were a LOT of insensitive and hurtful statements made. And it's not like that's unheard of. Yes, I've known him to be insensitivea lot and hurtful occasionally, but not to this extent, and not usually to me, and if he IS to me then at least I can usually console myself with the thought that I'm sure he didn't mean it that way.
Not this time. (I got more angry as I thought about it all at work, since he threw all this shit at me right after waking up and I wasn't even thinking right yet.) But no. This was hurtful, insensitive, AND purposeful.
I want to scream and throw things...Maybe when he goes to BAND PRACTICE tonight (third this week by the way) Because I'm supposed to change my life and schedule and everything around for him because everything he does is too im-fucking-portant to make any concessions for stupid old me.
Hmmmph...
