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nothing feels right with me anymore. I'm so close to getting things checked out, VOLUNTARILY, a big step for the girl who is perpetually terrified of hospitals, doctors, anything of the like.
I was given one last chance in this though. He said "Come home from work and just STAY IN BED, I don't care what you're doing, if you're away, just stay there. Act like you're sick. Then if you're still not feeling good and having problems by Wednesday, I'm taking you in to see someone."
So I've been given a time limit and an ultimatum. OK. I can deal with that...