And in the beginning...

[laurenaf]

I don't know what the fascination is. I don't know what's the draw. Somewhere it seems I came across the idea that it would be "fun" to make myself miserable. I hate what I do to myself and what I force myself to become (a depressed reclusive diet-obsessed freak unable to get close to anyone or form any meaningful relationships.) But then in some odd twisted way, I also like it. My own personal 'Jekyll and Hyde' personality trait.

And I'm never sure which to embrace. I've heard that you have to hit bottom before you can truly begin to heal. And I'm still like a worm, just inching my way down, one new low at a time.

So with that said, enter if you dare. I may have already said too much, and the rest will be friends only, but I like to offer a small taste of what you're getting into with me.

Comments

[killophelia.livejournal.com]

why do we keep going back to something we know is bad for us??

something to that effect is sung on the christina aguilera cd "stripped". If you want, I can burn the cd for you and mail it to yah. Her songs really really speak to me, like I cry when I listen. I didn't think SHE would have that kind of effect on me, but she does.

[prisonerx.livejournal.com]

oh boy, i feel ya.

*m

Re:

[silver-rayn.livejournal.com]

thanks.
sometimes I just really wish I knew where I was coming from. And where I'm going from here. (Even one of two would be better than this!)

[morbed.livejournal.com]

I have stumbled across your lj and the lj of a few others that I take it are in your circel of friends. I have never had an eatting disorder but have fought drug addiction most of my life, this may sound really stupid or really lame but I am really blown away by the simalarities of the two. I hope you dont mind but I really just wanted to share that with you. I have also added you to my friends list, we can all use a friend or 200.

[silver-rayn.livejournal.com]

I agree with you. I've known a couple people going through alcohol addiction and it is very similar.
I've been feeling alone and on a friend-adding rampage. Added back :)